So this scripture has been proven so true to me over the past few days. I have recieved so many blessings. I am going to be working on the movie they are filming here. I am able to work with a good friend on a fashion editorial that she is doing. I met an amazing new friend, who makes me smile everyday. Ashley called me Friday and told me she is taking me to the Panic at the Disco Concert on Tuesday. The casting office called me 30 minutes later and told me they wanted me to be an extra in the film. The Lord is just blessing me soooo abundantly. I am thankful for every day and every blessing.
So I have been thinking a lot lately about being lonely for the rest of my life. There is no one in the singles branch that I am interested in dating, no one even sparks my interest at all. I do not think I am ready for marriage, but I know I am ready for a relationship, but everyone one in the branch is ready to get married. I mean most of the couples that were dating for a month are already engaged and I am just not ready for that. I just do not know if I will ever get married, the thought has crossed my mind a few times, but then new people walk into my life and spark my interest, but I wonder if that person is even right for me. I mean someone who can make you smile and laugh and someone you look forward to hearing from, that has got to be a sign that they are going to be an important person in your life, there is no telling right now in what capacity that will be, but I have hope; hope that i will soon figure it all out. I am struggling so much right now with figuring out what to do with the rest of my life. I do not know where I want to end up living, I am not sure what I am going to do for a career, I have plenty of things I am qualified to do that will give me a comfortable lifestyle, but none that I am really passionate about, so right now I am trying new things and making new ventures figuring out what really makes me happy.
I think about my mom everyday, and about everything that she sacraficed for me. I love her so much and I am so thankful that I was born into the family I was, it made me who I am (disfunctional) ;). Every morning I thank heavenly father for allowing my mother to conceive me. She is the greatest gift in my life and I love her with all my heart. I am also thankful for all my brothers and sisters, there are 8 of them all together. My grandmother is also a very important person in my life, she drives me to accomplish the immpossible and has always been an inspiration and a comfort to me. I hope one day I can be like my grandfather, he is such an amazing man. He knows how to fix just about anything and has the most enduring heart of any person I have ever come in contact with.
tonight has been a short one kids, I am going to finish my warm bowl of chilli and get ready for the concert tomorrow. peace, love, and warm fuzzies.
shady grady
hot chip. ready for the floor.
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